Sandeep! You're on Medium, too. Excellent!

Your story reminded me: Years ago I had a severe problem. I'd think and think and decide "This is the way I'm going forward in life!" (whatever that way may have been) - and the next day, I'd go to the opposite! Needless to say, this was not a good situation.

I had just started reading Osho, and I'm sure that sneaky fellow helped me out... I realized that everything, energy-wise, has 2 poles, 2 energies. Just like a teeter totter.

I realized, "John, you just be the fulcrum, and let the two energies go up and down."

It solved everything.